I’ve decided to create and write an anonymous blog. How original. I’ve played around with the idea of writing in a blog because I believe that it’s such a positive and creative outlet to have. I’ve always hesitated with this idea for fear of judgement, and for the simple realization that I’m probably too lazy to even write entries on a regular basis. After much deliberation, but mostly understanding that I could just delete this whole thing without ramification, I’ve determined, why the fuck not?
Although, anonymous, there are a couple of things I would like to reveal about myself for the purpose of documenting where I am at this stage in my life. I’m a 25 year old mother. My daughter is 14 months old, and I raise her with my boyfriend (her father). They are my world, I’ve never pictured life with them, and now I can’t picture my life without them [insert heart eyes emoji here]. Seriously though, it’s a pretty amazing feeling to know that you are as loved as you love.
Essentially, I love my life and the people I share this life with, but I guess I’ve just always envisioned my life with several more items crossed off. I don’t know what the next step is for me or how my life will turn out, but I constantly get this “stuck” feeling that I can’t seem to shake. Maybe what I’m experiencing is either a mid-life crisis, or late post-partum depression, or possibly a combination of the two. I also don’t really know what I’m expecting to get out of seeing all of my private thoughts thrown together into a couple of decently structured sentences, or if any one else will ever get to read this. At best, I hope that I’m able to look back on these entries and to just reflect and feel grateful for how far I’ve come, so here it goes.
Disclaimer: I have no professional writing experience, and I apologize in advance for all of the grammatical errors that I guarantee you’ll find.